My Life In His Hands

Hi! Well, yet again I'm starting my post rather awkwardly. I have been posting quite irregularly and I must admit the big gaps here in my blog does not look good. Well, it's no serious thing. One of the things I love about blogging is it generates no pressure to meet deadlines and I don't feel obliged to please anyone in particular.

Okay, I started this entry somehow apathetically and now I'm returning back to my usual self. Whew!!! I admit I do feel tired because of the work I've been doing for days now. I will not go into details but I do thank You God for giving me this time off. It's like I can feel the blood on my legs again, literally and figuratively!

For me, Lorrainekid, this week has been tough. How does life throw its surprises and how does it manage to hit just the right people? It seems to me that God is giving me a chance to view life from a wider but a more beautiful perspective.

Okay, I know I'm speaking very vaguely. It's just that I feel many things in my life are out of sync right now. Its the work that I do, the place that I go to, the people I meet and all their hefty expectations that make me sad and somehow weigh me down. This week, life and death became personal issues for me. It visited someone I wished I've known a lot better and it made me more aware of my own guilt and weaknesses.

Writing now, I am reminded that I have to be positive. I need to take a breath of fresh air so as to clear my perspectives. Suddenly, I realized I am here for a reason. Yes, I am alive because God has a purpose for me. I don't exactly know what it is, but I sure know its not something that involves complacency, negativism, worrying, inferiority and even sadness.

I love being alive and I love the God that gives me life!!! You know what? If there's one good thing that came as a result of my wanderings, it is that I've come to depend on God more. In Jesus I found my BEST FRIEND!

Recently, we've all seen tragedy after tragedy occur all over the world. The earthquake in Haiti and then in Chile made me think of how variable our existence is! Just think of all the asteroids and floating mass in space. Any second our earth could be hit! How then are we kept safe/ There must be SOMEONE out there, a GOD who created the heavens and all things known and yet to be known who cares for us all! There is God, the One and Only, and He loves me and you more than we'll ever know!!!

I feel myself smiling!!! Isn't life nice and beautiful?! Oh well my hope and faith will sustain me. God bless and till my next post!