Fly, Fly, Lorrainekid!

Lately I have been too lazy to write. Yes, I mean it. The big gaps here on my blog are just one proof. What suffers more are my creative writing aspirations. I have always felt that I have good stories inside my brain, just waiting to be told and explored; now, however, I'm not so sure. Hey, that's the first time I ever really admitted that.

Heck, it's not been all roses for me these days. I don't mean to say I'm living with some serious problems but I'm not exactly cruising along so smoothly. I would love to just be taken away to my own world again one time; where the characters in my head live their own problems and affairs and I am there because I wanna be there. I must admit there are too many distractions in my present life that I cannot somehow find that quiet nook in my head. Yup, there are too many distractions and desires. Maybe my world is expanding.

But you know what? Haha...maybe this is exactly what I need to be better. I have always told myself that to be a better story writer, you have to have something to tell about life yourself. If you know more about life, if you are better exposed to people, if you have been hurt, embarrassed, overjoyed and then depressed for a time, then maybe you will become a better person and consequently, your stories become more real, more objective, more about life.

I would like to be a better, more inspired and motivated writer. I have to fight, or maybe I should not fight but yield in to my distractions and find out where they would lead me, and then who knows? Perhaps I just need to have a change; I just need something new. I know in my heart that the want and need to write and succeed is there, but there is something more, and as I live through everyday, I know I'll get closer to finding out what that is.

I wanna have fun as I go through life. I wanna smile and laugh genuinely as much as possible. Then, I will write. I need my zest redeemed and my whole person rejuvenated. Telling all these on my blog is my first step. I don't need to over criticize myself or punish myself for not writing. Somehow, my writing conscience understands. This I know. My whole person knows. Life is opening itself up to me and I know, I'm all getting ready to grab its balloon strings and fly.

Hey, hey people, I'm still a kid. I'm now a kid who's ready to explore the world and throw my bad fears to the winds. I rely on faith and the trust that wherever I go Father God is with me. I have someone to share my adventure with, always!

A happy life everyone!